hi i'm new. i'm 14 and here for cutting
HI, im new here.... Hope everyone is doing ok..x Jade
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Hey, new here. Name's Telira, I'm seventeen, and here for cutting.
( i was so so very happy last nightCollapse )It's the first time ever, i've lost that much blood... after that i was so pale and freezing cold. It's a very stange sensation.
hi guys,my name's tori, and i just made this ed-only lj. my other lj that i've had for about 5 years is torismith, you can add me there but i rarely write in it. my myspace is myspace.com/torismith so feel free to add me on there--and i'm on facebook too (the name is tori smith and i go to hood college). anyway, here's my story:i've been dealing with anorexia purging type since 8th grade. i've been in a couple IP treatment centers for a few months at a time, but every time insurance stopped paying. i'm 5'7 and for the past few years my weight has been steady between 110 and 120. during my first hospital visti, i was 82 lbs, but i've kept my weight at a fairly normal number since. anyway...my most recent hospital visit was at sheppard pratt in baltimore and i was VERY ready to recover. i'm so sick of my eating disorder, it's not even funny. it controls me. i am definitely not proana (although i used to be). i quit all my proana groups and have tried to limit my thinspiration. unfortuntately, i haven't been doing well lately, and all i can think about is dropping the weight. i know it's all emotional--but i'm not really up for dealing with emotions right now and the only thing i have is ana to fall back on.anyway, i was hoping you guys could help me...some days i'm prorecovery, other days not so much, so i'll probably sound bipolar, haha.i look forward to meeting everyone in the community, and feel free to friend me.x-posted
While reading this community, I noticed that there are many loving and caring people who have been hurt badly in so many different ways. There are many ways that help is available, and I'm hoping that my community can ease some of your demons.It doesn't say in the userinfo page that I cannot do this, so here I go and I am terribly sorry if this offends anyone. And if it does, the mod can delete this entry immediately.I created a community a while ago called attemptfailed: for people who have attempted suicide. It is not a pro- suicide community, but it is one for people to tell their story, get advice, find people to relate to, etc. There is much more about it in the userinfo page, but I thought I'd give a little introduction to the community in case anyone out there is interested.Take care everyone.
Hey. Cheekii again. Is everyone okay?If anyone even noticed I was gone(not that I'm that popular) I thought I had to go for a while. I thought I was done. I haven't started back,but sometiome I feel like I might. That can't happen though for two reasons:(Main reason) 1. It's against my religion to harm yourself or anyone else in anyway. I intend to respect that no matter how much I want to do it.2. I won't let myself do it I can't even though I really want to . Bad. I feel like I need to, but I just can't. Gotta be strong.I seemed happy, but realized I was really really depressed. Didn't see another alternative. Had no one to talk to . No one understood. No one cared(well, that hasn't really changed at all).I figured out what was upsetting me was he fact that I was keeping from my mother that I'm gay. Came out(while watching Will & Grace, ha!) and she didn't flip out so I thought everything was okay. WRONG!
ok well yesterday i took a friend to the guidence councelour at school because she cuts, shes doing betterbut ive been down for awhile, i don't really want help, i don't know how to word it at all but i don't want help, cutting makes me feel betterand right now my life is really crappy, it has been for like 4 weeks and i cut myself really badly 2 weeks agobut then a week ago one of my other friends told the guy that i like that i like him and well yeah so thats the only good thing and plus the friend who is getting help for her problembut i don't see much to make me feel better anymoreive just lost all sense of the good things and i can't find them againi lost interest in everything i ever didim extremly self consciencei haven't been eating much in the last week and im getting sick, i almost went back to old habits (i was bulimic in between 6th and 7th grade) and yeah im getting weakand for the past few weeks i can't concentrate because of my feelings so i have F's in 2 of my classes, and my mom keeps yelling at me, i got my first detention the other day, i really don't know what to do anymoreit hurts so muchi really am losing itand i can't stop cutting cause i don't want to...i really do think i need help but i can't tell anyone cause my problem is more serious than my other friends so the guidence counselours r obligated to tell my parents as catholics and as counseloursits not fair that i can't get help in secret and she cani have my razor next to me and i really want to but i can't stop crying, i know that it'll be bad again and i know it'll hurtbut the more that i think about it, the more i want to do iti thought i was happy yesterday and then small things happen and since im touchy about emotional things i loose iti need ideasi need helpi need secrecyi need to find what i once wasi need my life back
So today sucked, and i got very bored. I'm still going thru heartache...no razor blades in sight, instead i made friends with a safety pin.( Read more...Collapse )<lj-cut text="Opps"